Nicole and Me singing over Always Attract by You Me At Six
I won’t eat, because I want to get sick. Just to see if you would come see me.
I don’t see any meaning in life anymore.
Ride up to see you, and somehow win you back.
I’ll show up in an apron, and my glasses, if I have to.
I’ll bring muffins, and cookies, and banana nut bread.
I’ll do anything.
Please, just come back.
About what you’re letting go. About everything. I wish you would stop just to see how much I love you. I wish you would stop to look back on how both of us felt when we first met. I wish that I could talk to you like we used to. I wish that I had some power over this. I wish that you would talk about it with me. I wish I could hear you say you love me again. Remember when my yawn was one of your favorite sounds? Remember when we made all those plans for when we grow older? Remember when you said you’d never leave me? Remember when you said you didn’t want anyone else? Remember when you said you’re not the type of guy that just lets faith go to waste? What happened to all of that? Was it really just a show?
Back up, please. Slow down, please. Don’t run from me. I’m here, and I’m not leaving. Just go back to when we met. Go back, and then try to tell me you didn’t love me as I loved you.
I forget that you’re gone. I forget that it all happened so quickly, and it feels like forever. I forget that I’m not allowed to talk to you. I forget it all. I forget that I’m supposed to forget about you. I forget that you don’t love me. I forget it all. And when I finally remember, it hits me 10 times harder, and that’s when tears start to come.
I wish I could tell you everything that’s on my mind, and I wish it would mean something. I wish I could feel your love again. I wish I could stop crying. I wish I could get over it as easily as you did. I wish that I could be the one you loved. I wish that you actually meant everything you actually said. I wish I could think about something other than you. I wish you’d call me up right now and say, “I’m so sorry, please forgive me.” I wish you would fight for us like you said you would. God, I just wish I could go back in time to when we were happy. It’s been two days without you, and it feels like years. Why does this hurt so much? Why can’t I function right? Why can’t I just be a big girl and pick myself back up and move on? Is it because this wasn’t supposed to happen?
